Personal Post: Mountains and Barriers.

It is almost 11 p.m. and I have an exam tomorrow, but you know what? I'm going to blog anyway.

So this week back has been a whirlwind of emotions for me.  It was really difficult to adjust back to reality, especially this new reality of knowing my aunt is no longer with me.  I have kept busy with various activities, such as a retreat for high school youth, and catching up on school work.  Now that I have down-time (when I'm supposed to be studying) I have just been in a rut of wallowing in my own emotions.  I have tried my best to be distracted, but there is no time or justification for some play time because of my studies, and work.  So, now that is is 11 p.m., I am just going to let out my emotions and frustrations here right now, because this is originally why I created a blog, to express anything and everything that is me.

First off,
SCHOOL IS HARD.  That statement is totally overused and underestimated.  After transferring to University to continue my study of Anthropology, it is much more rigorous and a lot of hard work!  I am currently behind in 3 of my 4 classes, and am about to take a make-up exam tomorrow.  I am very proud of myself for handling everything as well as I am, I don't give myself enough credit, because I am excelling beyond my community college days.  But, I always feel as if I am not doing well enough, not participating in class discussion, not taking enough time to really study.. It takes a lot to be a well rounded college student, and I feel that I am not meeting up to that expectation.

I guess that's all what's really on my mind right now.. I just feel that this is so hard to overcome, my sorrow and grieving, on top of school.. it's a lot.  Hopefully I can look back on this in a few weeks and be proud of this semester, right now.. I'm not looking to hot.

Bye for now,
-nalovita.